The Rule

is there enough energy
to tell u the truth
i am reduced
but still not small enough
sabotage really exists u know
isn’t that so strange
if u text me,
i will fall through my bedroom floor
into the abyss
falling forever
just falling and falling and texting u back
i wonder about that man
he offers it all
but the beauty, it’s so wrong
could i fix that
could i feel correctly
this reality
cannot be believed
where is god
not here

not small, not pretty